Things

Ooh it's a lamppost...with lots and lots of blue.

Things have been happening. Lots and lots of things.

As much as I would want to write something meaningful or anything just to say I'm alive and well, time has been holding me back and the most I have are lots of attempts stored away in my Drafts folder; and I guess will stay there until the end of time

One event comes after the other, and even if I get to reach some sort of epiphany or high state; I'm often too tired to write about it, not even in my physically existing journal, which is really surprising for me.

But I hope to carry on with the disposition of keeping complaining and finding fault out of my system; to find God and His meaning in everything that is happening. After all, in the whirlwind of things, it's not the challenges that are being thrown everywhere. To be still and stand firm even in the hardest and most shaking turbulence is the greatest challenge that I am to face now.

But I know that to focus on life's stumbling blocks and overlook the good is the most unfair thing in the world, especially to our provident and loving God. Beyond those is life-giving and abounding grace. And for that, I am very grateful.

As for the blessings, which bring me happiness transcending all those frustrations and stress, I have so much to say. First, is that God is the greatest. He gives us more than what we expect and what we ask for. So much has been given to me that I sometimes ask God what I have done to deserve all this; but then again, this is not about what you've done, but what's been done for you. God is the greatest, amen?

Another thing that I need to remember is that when I accept something, I ought to do it with self-giving and limitless love. In Log and in class, I've already been feeling how it is for people to depend on me and how things can either come together or fall apart because of a single choice that I make. It's really very humbling how much God trusts me with these things and I promised myself that no matter what, giving up is not an option. If this is what He wants for me, then all I pray is that my heart may bend to it; to continue loving and serving, because I have been loved so much.

Lastly, what I need to always remember is that no burden too heavy to carry if I have God. At times, I would feel as if I would look for the reasons or the motivations as to why I keep on going and doing all these things, but I'm always being guided day by day by the fact that God knows best and that everything that is happening in my life right now has been planned out long before I was even alive. To love is to trust.

Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam.