Cliffhanger

September 5, 2010 || 10:05pm

Yes, it's very late but I have to finish writing Palanca letters for important people. And in between letter-writing, I shall share this moment with you.

Right now, I'm waiting for a very important thing. Well, it might make no sense to you since you don't know what I'm talking about but try to read on.

Maybe if I tell you what it is, you may tell me, "'Yun lang?" then laugh and call me shallow. People have their own sources of joys and pleasures. This one is mine. 

Ok. I just put this very important thing on a cliffhanger. I felt like I was waiting too long when I could have done this months before. I felt like doing something to make things change. I wanted to know if I should go on and live this dream or move on and leave this fantasy. It may sound melodramatic but if there's something or someone melodramatic, that's me. I'm pretending that this is one big fairytale where I get my happy ending. I can't just let go. It's like holding on to Rapunzel's long hair. When I let go, I know that I'll fall and have nothing left again. I'll be an empty person with no inspiration or motivation AGAIN. 

This is actually a good time to do this since something BIG is coming up and it might change what I believe in and what I was holding on to for quite a long time. Well, here's the catch. If this turns out positively, I'll not entertain anything that comes my way but only focus on this story and...If this turns out negatively, I'll just put a break to it or maybe a full stop, depending on my mood when I see it. And I'll be open to negotiations. :>

The second one might be a better idea, eh? And if I would toss a coin, I surely would know what I want. And it's the first one. But that's for now. Things change. People change. Because of decisions. And there is no random act. If someone decides for himself, then I am affected. That simple. And that meaningful. 'Cause my life's current perspective depends on this cliffhanger. 

"It's like tossing your heart to see where it lands..."

- "Different Summers" - Demi Lovato, Camp Rock 2

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