Beginning

It's been a while, 'no? School's been keeping me preoccupied lately, and having to face Senior Year with as much enthusiasm as possible; it's a miracle that I could actually find time to write a short post.

We're starting the lasts of firsts; or firsts of lasts for that matter. Even little things, such as last first day and last first School Mass have been digging their way through our Seniorited minds. I guess it's that we're approaching the final lasts soon that I think there's no other way I should graduate but to be able to take something with me aside from myself. That's what kept me positive for the past few weeks - that no matter what happens, it would only last for the moment and there is a future far ahead; so the least I can do is to try to make the most of what I am blessed with now.

Thankfully, my section has been making me appreciate the gift of person more; to see that success is not merely personal, but is best when shared with others. It's only the start of the journey, and I thank IV-1, because they have made me look forward to what we can achieve individually and as one class. All IV-1, one for all.

I've read some great books over the summer; but that's one of my major goals this year: to read more and more and more. Aren't unlimited words a bliss? It's a huge challenge though, having to study while reading without disrupting the balance between responsibility and literary nourishment (hahaha). But I will try; and it will be beautiful once I reach that harmony.

Indeed, it is very liberating to start a new beginning, to see meaning in newness; especially in learning. Classes like Philosophy and English are actually some of the major reasons why I can get myself to wake up every morning; that even though you do not know, they give you the guarantee that with patience and perseverance, you will get to where you long to be. But the paradox in that is once you reach your goal, you will long for something higher than that. And it would be a pleasure. Learning is eternal, after all.

My views on passing the entrance tests (especially UPCAT) now have tremendously changed since last year. It's not all or nothing anymore - it's doing your best and trusting in what God has planned for you. Of course, we might worry and fear the future all we want, but what if apart from the answers and the preparation you do, everything turns out to be in Someone else's hands? It's very reassuring, isn't it?

One thing has changed so much, though, that I am not very certain how it came to me. It's that strong will to believe that everything will be according to how it was written - optimism, so to speak. And it has one reason, I believe - God's undying and overflowing grace. And I will be grateful forever and always.

Everything is indeed falling into place.