As it is.

 January 21, 2011, || 9:26pm

So this is my very first vocab blog. I'll be making quite a lot as the days go by. This is just for educational purposes and however random the things I write on this may be, pardon, but I have to use all the words I have in my personal Vocabulary Journal.

Ready? Here we go.

Fourth Quarter

As the quarter starts, I have been promising myself total focus and less procrastination. And so far, I've been really good at fighting forces of distraction and temptation. So what has happened during the first weeks of the quarter?

We all came back with the holiday hangover, saying that the break was not enough but during the preparations for the fair, the school eventually ceded to the dominion of energized school spirit.

The fair was as awesome and was definitely better than expected. I was absolutely enthralled because it was the first school fair I had in my entire life and it was really cool. Except for the thing that happened on that day which really made my spirit go down, and by the way, that seemed empathic in this blog. I won't talk about that further because I don't want to recall. I've been fixing everything that happened on that moment and I think I've moved on. But frankly, I don't think it's an act of sheer folly driven only by emotions I had that time. It was something that led me to feel everything that I don/t ever want to admit about myself. I havent't been seeing it as a sign of immaturity or cowardice. I just felt like I'm already brave enough to blog about it, knowing that someone who knows about the matter might read it. 

Anyway, enough about that. That might perpetuate in my mind for a long time but I don't think that it would affect my life that much anymore. So let's move on. My irresponsibility led to really bad RHGP results. I know that's some kind of a well-deserved ramification after I lost something really valuable without hope of finding it ever again. But I guess I've moved on too. Gosh. I reckon life could've been easier if I moved on before as easily as I do now. 

God has His plans. I'm pretty much aware of that although I've been less devout as the months went by. I'd want to come back to those days when God's being the center of my life was the main purpose of my existence. I won't be hypocritical and say that definitely, it still is. But genuinely, I'd want to be very vigilant in trying to actually make that work; that I can accomplish human tasks while still being able to enrich my soul, because God gives substantiation to everything that I have and do. 

What else? Oh. Seat plans. I've been sitting next to one of my best friends for the last few weeks. It's been really great but I was really surprised how whimsical our VP's decision was. It was basically based on consensus. Improvement and fun at the same time = Perfect for a last quarter's experience. 

And I have been blocking Harry Potter and Tumblr during the weekdays. It'd me very malignant to my desire of having higher grades if I kept them on. It's been really good so far. I'm adjusting pretty well. But the fact that HP and Tumblr are concupiscible by many teenagers, and even adults, these days, I can't blame myself for blocking. And I'm ascertained that I will soon realize that sometimes, fooling yourself is the only way out of a problem that you need to solve. In 2010, I sought the ability to concentrate. I failed to achieve that though. So this year, hopefully, I'll make it. And how I perceive distraction will change, eventually.

And so, I end this. I wasn't very objective on how this would turn out but I hope it's comprehensive enough to not be called random. There, have a happy weekend, world. ;)

All the world is a laboratory to the inquiring mind.

-Martin H. Fischer

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