Weltz

I'm running out of title ideas. I need a creative break. I don't know if there really are such, but what I'm referring to are those enjoyed by people who earn for their creativity to come up with brand new whotamawhatters. Kind of similar to sabbaticals. Or maybe they are sabbaticals. Oh well. Oh weltz. 


For some reason, I feel like blogging today just to update you on my rather slow progress in blogging. It's been a while / 10 days since I last wrote, and so much has happened, I can't even remember writing that post. 


There's not much to say, really, except that I should be studying now but I'm not because I'm such a procrastinator and I'm seriously bothered by it. But still, I'm not doing anything about it; I have quiet time music playing and I just want to go up to my beloved bed and sleep until I am forced to separate from it. There. I stopped it. I have to or else, I'd be getting a low mark in Filipino, which I'm avoiding, because (1) I like the subject and the topic [Film]; and (2) because, I need to pull up my grades. They're not the lowest, mind you. I just feel like God is asking me to give more of my best to actually use what He has given me and not just give in to mediocrity. Especially now that I will have to prepare for law. Yes, I'm a to-be lawyer. Yay. Turns out my life was to head somewhere I wasn't expecting. But I guess, even with the lawyer plan around, a lot of things will still happen and I can never fully know where I'm going. At least I have a direction. It helps a lot, especially when I'm in dire need of the hope of a brighter tomorrow. I'm going to be a lawyer. 


I'm really happy right now. I'm in a place that I do not know and I'm very uncertain, but I'm happy, because without expectations or plans, I don't really have a lot of supposed tos to worry about. The little trivial blessings and meaningful manifestations of God's grace are the only things I could care about right now. My heart has no room for negatives right now. Happiness is flowing in me because I'm in love with Jesus. And even if I am sometimes subjected to suffering, I know there's something that God has in store for me - far greater than I have ever imagined for myself.

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:16-18) 

God knows. God is the Master Planner of our lives. There is nothing in your past, present, and future that is ever a surprise to our God. This is one of the most reassuring and touching Words from our God: 

"Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows." (Luke 12:7)

That leaves us the security that He will not abandon and He does not forget any of His children, even the lost  and the despaired - especially those who are suffering, because He knows each one of us even if we do not know Him or if we fall short of His glory. He loves us not for who we are or for what we have done, but for who He is, and the most we can do is to love Him and out brethren as He has loved us, and to offer all of our lives to Him.

I am happy. But it's not me that makes me happy. It's God's presence that directs my steps towards the way of His. All that I have and am is not mine, but His, even my happiness. I will fail and fall down, but I will be picked up and continue to live on my way to His Kingdom. This moment here is a mere illusion of what lies beyond the mountains in front of us. I am happy now, because even though I am faced with mountains, I hope in that Great Beyond that God promises.

And so, I walk away with an enriched soul and a still unproductive attitude. I hope I get out of this rut. It's affecting my life big-time. Oh well, instead of complaining about my procrastination, I should probably start doing what I am supposed to do. Off to work. But before I go, I shall leave you with this video/song that our Fil teacher left us today that got me so LSS-ed. It's the Filipino version of Celine Dion's My Heart Will Go On! WARNING: Seriously addictive version!

Hahaha, here you go:

And with that, I bid adios. :) Good night and God Bless. Hayyy weltz.

Ooh. Look at my new layout. It's very doodly. Me likey.