Beginning

I have two Quarter Tests tomorrow - Geometry & Filipino - and I honestly don't know why I'm not studying. There's a game on, which means that I should be paying full attention, especially because we're winning three-nil. For the past thirty minutes or so, though, I was preoccupied with rearranging the layout of my blog. It's been only two weeks since my last layout change, but I feel like I'm entering a new chapter in my life and I need a major change to formally open it.

I still have a week before I finally do in the 3rd Quarter. This year's slowly ending and I just realized that maybe, I could make some difference in someone's life. It may not be as big as I would want it to be, but I just know that my year won't be as fulfilling until I've done it. This goal, together with my bigger future-oriented goal, gives me some sense of direction as to where I'm going next.

It's a new beginning, but what I've gone through in the past doesn't have to be left behind. I'm not going to be a part of the past, but the past surely will be a part of me. 

past. perfect. tense. Aside from the pun on the verb tense, this just means something that I've been thinking about for the past few months. I lived most of my life looking back at the past. It could have been perfect, if I just did this and that. And thinking that I might make the same faults makes me feel tense.Very, very simple. But it's a lot more me than my old title. 

Robert Blanchard beautifully said in his book, Live What You Love: Notes from an Unusual Life (1998), "Believe in yourself. That’s when the magic begins." (p. 99). And now is the first time that I can truly say, I do believe in myself.